Like for thursday, we met up and I told you about my feelings after your mom told me those things. You shouted at me. Then when I shed some tears after hearing all your shouts, you still didn't stop saying hurtful things. Where's the Herman who would hug me close to his heart when I cry?

Then yesterday was my school's dinner and dance. I'm happy that you came. But when the soup was served, you didn't help me get a bowl, it's alright since Han got me one instead. I turned to your direction and look and you got Troy a bowl instead. So I joked about you rather serving Troy then me and everyone laughed. But you? You got all angry and started cursing and swearing. Then after I made that joke and was still laughing, Han placed my soup back in the center and wanted to give you a chance to serve me. Instead, you sat there and don't even bother to help. So I took it myself and got really upset because you can't be bothered to be a nice boyfriend during the dinner. You threatened me to leave the dinner. Again, you want to abandon me. Actually, right when you threatened me, I wanted to leave. 

I really don't know what is going through your mind. I miss the boyfriend whom I fell in love with. I love you I love you I love you. Stop hurting me. I know you're stress. But I need you.

I guess you wouldn't be celebrating my birthday this year since you didn't even plan to take the day off before hand. Another lonely birthday. Another depressing birthday. I hate birthdays.